My Aspects

Sun Sextile Moon

Sun Sextile Mars

Sun Square Neptune

Sun Sextile Uranus

Sun Sextile ASC

Moon Sextile Venus

Moon Conjunct Mars

Moon Conjunct Uranus

Moon Trine ASC

Mercury Conjunct Saturn

Mercury Conjunct Pluto

Mercury Sextile Neptune

Mercury Opposite MC

Venus Square Neptune

Mars Conjunct Uranus

Mars Trine ASC

Jupiter Square ASC

Saturn Sextile Neptune

Saturn Conjunct Pluto

Saturn Opposite MC

Uranus Trine ASC

Neptune Sextile Pluto

Neptune Trine MC

Pluto Opposite MC

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Sun Sextile Moon

Well hmm. I think for the most part at this time in my life alot of this doesn't ring true right now. But at the same time I can see alot of it as a deeper aspect of myself, something I am still working on. I suffer from depression and have alot I need to heal from in my past. And while I do believe that we should learn from our past, that it holds lessons which we can grow from and that we shouldn't hold on to it but move forward, I often find myself not following what I believe there.

harmonious with my family, at first I was thinking no way lol. But all families fight and sometimes don't get along. I think it speaks more of how I strive for peace in my family. I can not control everyone else and how they feel and what they do, even if I want to lol. But from my side, I do strive for that and not in a difficult work hard for it kindof way.

People do like me alot. And alot of it is for what was said right there, I am able to assert myself sometimes but I never want to offend anyone. I am peaceful and nice :) I would much rather compromise with others when it comes down to it. I am just a nice person and alot of people seem to notice this as I am being told this all the time lol

Sun Sextile Mars

I like this one. I have alot of creative energy. And yes a very constant drive to express them. I think I am always coming up with some new idea for something and taking on 50 million projects, usually when I am already running 50 million lol. I have a small problem with focus, which was talked about alot with the elements before. I do tend to rush into things alittle bit though, but maybe I do not really rush into them in a way that anyone else would think was rushing? I do put alot of thought into my ideas before doing them but for me its not enough.

Anyways I think this has described me perfectly! Except that I often lack the followthrough for all of my ideas to see life. Which can be explained by me taking on far too much for me to handle. ofcourse having so much energy directed in so many different ways causes burnout alot. Which actually happens to me quite alot. It is something I really need to think about.

Sun Square Neptune

I feel chills from reading that. Reading that got me very emotional, which is alittle ironic as it said I was emotional hmm lol

First yes I love animals :) I am a huge animal person. I am very sensitive to suffering and vunerable emotionally. If anyone hurts I hurt. Watching the news is hard for me, I am that sensitive. Just seeing anyone suffer or in pain just deeply saddens me.

I have a huge problem with not being grounded in reality. I have always been a dreamer, I find that I often daydream much much more then I should. Where I could get lost in it, and lose sight of reality. That makes me sounds crazy lol but I am not ;) I have a very strong imagination.

I do have an inferiority complex. I never want to think I can do something or that I am good enough.

I think that is very true that I often find it hard to do some things, such as my writing. I have such huge dreams and goals for it, but at the same time I doubt myself. And it leaves me at a loss as where to begin and how to.

I do want to be special. I always wanted to save the world. I need to realize that I can make positive steps in the right direction but they need to be realistic steps also.

Sun Sextile Uranus

I like reading this right after Neptunes, it reminds me that the energy isn't really negative or positive in itself, but more in how we use it.

My wonderful imagination and inspiration here is shown positive, but as before if I rely too much on them it can be a bad thing. Its all about finding the balance.

I do work well with people. People like me and trust me. I do tend to dramatic in expressing my thoughts and ideas. And I don't want everyone to just agree without question. I want to share ideas openly and I want others to do the same. Some of my dearest friends are people who usually complete disagree with me on everything lol. And it seems to strange that we can have these long deep discussions and disagree but still be dear friends. And one of the reasons is because I am never mean and can discuss without aggression. I see things from others point of view while expressing myself in a way that makes others understand my view also.

Sun Sextile ASC

Very right on. It pretty much says everything else. I am very creative. That I express myself skillfully and gain others trust and friendship :)

And honesty is very important to me. Almost one of the most important things. I can not stand dishonesty.

Moon Sextile Venus

Well I am a nice, happy friendly person. Alot of people actually do say that I can find the good in everyone and I do try to. If a problem comes up between me and someone else I always want it to be worked out, or between two of my friends. and yeah I usually just believe it will be fine in the end.

I just want everyone to be happy.

I am alittle secertive about myself though and my problems. As I said above I am not sure how everything else relates to everything else. But as I have my moon in scorpio, it kindof would make sense?

Moon Conjunct Mars

Well that didn't sound too good. But it was truthful. I do have very intense emotions. Even though for the most part they tend to more on the sad crying side then the aggressive side. But I do often have mood swings and temper tantrums :( lol

I do feel I need to work on self-control and channeling my energy and emotions into positive goals.

Moon Conjunct Uranus

I am a rebel :) I am very unique, I like being different. I have a wonderful imagination, and I think it really helps in how I view life and in everything I do. So that is very true for me. It does make it very hard for me to focus on things, and I can't stand dull repitition, it will drive me insane.

As I said above though i do have some problems with the past, some issues I need to work through.

I am a very tolerant person and opptimistic :)

Moon Trine ASC

Well I actually had always wanted to be an actress so this fits me very well. I feel that I am quite talented at it even. :)

I also am very empathetic.

Mercury Conjunct Saturn

I do tend to be inhibited, and build a wall around myself. That describes it perfectly even. The rest isn't that true of me. It kindof all said the opposite of what had already been said.

I don't know, the description kindof felt boxy to me, if that makes sense. Too structured, which I think i tend to be not like that too much.

Mercury Conjunct Pluto

This is more me. I am very open minded and try to stay objective, yet I do try to get people to change their mind, when I feel they are wrong. While I will never ever change my mind! :) Ok I do sometimes. I can be sometimes assertive in expressing my views. I don't mean to, as I do try to be open minded and see their side also.

I do look for hidden meanings in what others say. Sometimes I just worry too much but also I am a good judge of people and do feel I can see through them.

Mercury Sextile Neptune

This talks more about my imagination which I feel is all right on. And also my creative side, which talked about it being expressed in written form. I love to write and to share that part of myself. I often find myself turning my daydreams or letting my imagination free and then writing it all down :)

Mercury Opposite MC

"You have a lot of creative energy that needs to be recognized and given voice"

I agree with that very much. I think my biggest problem in not going forward with what I want to do is giving it a voice, channeling my creative energy into something.

Venus Square Neptune

Well atleast I am creative with good taste lol :)

This aspect was true of me also. I have a very sensitive defense mechanism, I tend to put shields, and it does make being close hard. I also do have an escape mechanism, which makes me just want to hide away and not face reality. Its very hard for me not to do that. Its something I struggle with alot.

"you receive signals from your subconscious that have no bearing to reality and can disillusion you."

This is actually very true, I don't think I have ever thought of it exactly like that before, but thinking of it, it feels very true to me. I think i need to think on that more. But it is very true.

Mars Conjunct Uranus

More about burnout hmm lol

This was pretty true to me, but I think not exactly how it was written. But in a deeper sense. This isn't something that is just right on the surfice or that others might notice I think. I really had to stop and think about it.

I am very creative and my ideas just flow and I just pick them up and go and I love to experiment and test everything out hands on as I go along. Which usually leaves me landing on my head in the end but lol

I like to have control but not in the bossy sort of way. I just want things to be my way or more how I feel things should be. But I don't care to be out there forcing others to make it that way, I would much rather let someone else do that lol.

And even though I love technology, and love every all the new technological stuff I could never ever work with it lol. I get frustraited far too easily to focus on something so small and detailed. I need a place to let my mind roam freely, and things like that are too boxy for me.

For example I love my computer. I can usually figure out most things about it myself, through experiments lol trial and error :) But the inner workings of it I have no clue. It is completely confusing and I don't really care as long as it works. I leave all that junk to my boyfriend lol

Mars Trine ASC

Well yes I do have alot of energy and again like to focus on 50 things at once but mentally and physically lol.

Jupiter Square ASC

Eeek even more on burnout lol. I think I have a problem and my aspects are shouting at me loud and clear here??!

Yes I can't resist taking on everything that my lovely creative mind can fathom. And I actually have a huge problem with getting into something and forgetting basic things like that I need food or sleep... There has been times when I start doing something and just stay up all night long working on it. Or times where I can work all day long and forget to eat.

I know I should look for others for more help. I think the hardest part with that is that I like everything my way. And others try as they might can never do it the same as I can. Well don't I sound like a Virgo? :)

Saturn Sextile Neptune

Well the first part doesn't really seem to fit me much. I do not really feel I have very good self-discipline.

But I do feel that I have a very idealistic attitude and values. I do have very high expectations of others. Which to me is not a very good thing.

Saturn Conjunct Pluto

I actually do not tend to put all of my energy into one project or goal, as I have said so many times already I often spread myself out over many different things. And I do not always acomplish what i set out to do because of this. So it doesn't really fit me there.

I enjoy hard work and patience? lol no. I am the most impatient person ever. I can never sit still even. And hard work, well I don't really enjoy hard work. I would always much rather be doing something I enjoy. I do like to see something I have worked so hard on become what it is. In the end I can appriciate my hard work and patience that i put into something, but while I am doing it, no way lol

I do find that people can approach me with questions and I really love this :)

But for the most part it doesn't really fit too well hmm.

Saturn Opposite MC

I do lack the confidence to accomplish my goals and dreams. I make harsh judgements and put myself down alot, thinking I will fail. I probably should look deeper within and realize it isn't true.

it could come from my parents, atleast partly. they were very busy. And I never felt like I got enough attention. I feel I need someone to tell me my ideas are good, and they didn't enough. I didn't find enough encouragement from them to follow my dreams.

I do not blame them for everything though. I make my own choices, even if I chose the easier path to take at the time.

Uranus Trine ASC

I am a very unique person. I never do things normal. I think I look deeper into things to find the truth. I often say that there are many different kinds of truth. I think this could be talking also about divination and astrology which I love!!

I have very strong intuition. I often find i know things and don't realize how I possibly could besides it feeling right ;)

Neptune Sextile Pluto

I agree with everything you said here :) I truely wish people could look past their own selfish desires and look around them. See the abuse of our Earth, the hate, the tightening grip greed and power is having on us all ;( And I do have hope though. Each future generation is becoming more aware I think. I often find alot of younger people being so much more open minded about one another, looking past, sex, race, religion, etc... I do fear though the state of the planet. We really need to shift focus on what we can do for the planet not what it can do for us. But hope still lives.

Neptune Trine MC

ooo I like this :) I would love to go further into this side and maybe make it into a career. I love astrology and all kinds of divination. I find that without knowing anything about a certain type I can just be open and let my intuition guide me quite a bit. :)

I think with more practice and knowledge someday I can take it to another step and help people.

I do have a big problem with grounding myself. I need to work on being more disciplined.

Pluto Opposite MC

I feel very selfconscious about myself. I will often feel like no one believes in me or what I do. And it can be very very tough :(

I know i just need to focus more on myself and changing this outlook for sure.

First House: None
Second House: Venus
Third House: Saturn, Mercury, Sun
Fourth House: Pluto, Jupiter, Moon
Fifth House: Uranus, Mars, Neptune
Sixth House-Twelfth house: none

My Ascendant is Leo.

Sun in my Third House: I feel I do tend to be optimistic :) I love to learn, I really liked how it was described. I really think it does fit me. I mean seriously just right now I am involved in this class, a tarot study, a book study plus doing like 3 other studies on my own hmm lol :) I am also a writer, and love to share my information I learn with others :)

Moon in my Fourth House: I do love nature. I also feel that I strongly long for dependable, stable roots. I have strong emotional ties to my home life.

Mercury in my Third House: Yeah :) My mind is always going. As I said above I tend to get involved in many things which keep my mind busy and active.

Venus in my Second House: I love money :) I tend to be materialistic. Just alittle lol. I would like to think that I am artistically inclined. Writing is my art, and there is nothing I would love more then to do that for a living. But I think everything I lean towards in business is more artistic. I wanted to be a dancer, a writer, an actress, etc...

Mars in my Fifth House: At first I was thinking I do not see this at all lol. But i love your description of it. And can see myself there. My creative talent for one ;) As I said above. (*I love how everything is running together lol) I am a jealous person. And do have a very active sex drive so that might be Mars there :)

Jupiter in my Fourth House: Well I do so hope I have a full and fortunate life later on. lol I have had alot of help from my family. My mother has deeply influenced my life. I really like having Jupiter there, it feels very optimistic, as my home life will expand with good fortune :)

Saturn in my Third House: I have had depression. And I actually ended up dropping out of high school, which goes along with "experienced difficulties or delays in obtaining your education". I do have a very firm sense of wrong and right. That is something people really recognize in me, even.

Uranus in my fifth House: More of that creative energy :) I do strive to embrace my freedom and independence. I really like this: "Romantic involvement occurs in sudden and unconventional ways" I actually met my fiance online and ended up moving across the country to be with him lol.

Neptune in my Fifth House: I love fantasy. As I said above my dream was to be an actress. Everything that has to do with fantasy, make believe, imagination fits me perfectly. And yes I am always the true romantic :)

Pluto in my Fourth House: I can not really see anything here hmm. I do love the Earth though and Nature so that may be part of it?

Leo as my ascendant: Yes I am very creative. I like to think I have that creative attitude to myself. I have sometimes come across to people as thinking I am better then everyone, even though I never think that actually. :( I love to make an impression. I have that urge to enter a room and have everyone go wow lol. I am so crazy lol :)

We all come from the Goddess
And to Her we shall return
Like a drop of rain
Flowing towards the ocean

I am heartbroken. My little parakeet Juliet died the 27th. She had been acting strange for a little while, turned completely white, then she went blind. We took her to stay with Jonathan's parents as we have a messed up heater and the tempature here wasn't very stable. We thought she would get better over there. Plus they have a blind cockatiel as well as another cockatiel and a parakeet. So my 3 parakeets would be well taken care of there. And I could visit often.

But she began to get worse and worse. There was nothing we could do. She had been so sick and we all knew she was going to go soon. And she went that night, sitting in Jonathan's dad's lap as he petted her. I just wish I could have been there.

Or maybe I wouldn't of even been able to handle it.

Its so hard. I haven't really ever had to deal with death. My only relative that I knew was my grandfather that committed suicide, but I was two and could not have understood it then, nor do I remember it or him now.

My two pet mice died, but I was younger then. And plus I kindof blocked the pain of it. Not to mention I was so angry as my brother had accidently killed them that the anger helped cover up the pain I felt.

Death sucks. I just wanted to scream and ask why?? Why does anything have to die, I don't want to be left. To not have them there anymore.

But ofcourse I know why. Its cycles, life, then death, then life again. Nothing can be born without having something die. Nothing can be new if the old hasn't been cleared. This is a huge part of my spirituality, the cycles of life.

I know when we die it isn't the end just another turn of the wheel. I believe we return to the Goddess, to Earth. We return to the flow again. So why is it so hard then? Why does it still hurt so much?

We buried her over at Jonathan's parents house. Right in there front garden, under the flowers, such a lovely spot. Jonathan says we will plant a flower there for her in the spring, something that will always return, because that is part of the cycle isn't it?

Sun in Virgo
Moon in Scorpio
Mercury in Libra RX
Venus in Virgo
Mars in Sagittarius
Jupiter in Scorpio
Saturn in Libra
Uranus in Sagittarius
Neptune in Sagittarius
Pluto in Libra

Sun in Virgo: There is alot of myself I see in the sign of Virgo. I am a perfectionist. I am amazingly picky over the smallest details. And tend to put myself and others on impossible pedistals they could never even reach. :( How terrible does that sound? lol But I am also very loving and will be there to support others :) I love that image of an Earth Mother Goddess.

Moon in Scorpio: It so fits me perfectly :) I am very emotional, sensitive and passionate. I think scorpio is such an intense sign, to me it feels like a dam breaking, just the rush of water. It is sometimes hard to hold your ground in that, it can be so overwhelming like how very sensitive & emotional I can be or quick to judge or throw myself into emotional situations. But I think it is well balanced with Virgo as my sun sign. The earth sign can help ground me ;)

Mercury in Libra: This speaks so true of me. I have had alot of people say this about me :) I am always the one in the middle breaking up fights :) I hate fighting :( And I really do not handle any kindof conflict well. I think every word of this describtion fits me perfectly :)

Venus in Virgo: I have had people tell me this stuff about me too :( I am very over critical and think to much lol. I have a big problem of over-analyzing emotions, of mine and others. But I am also very devoted and true to those I love.

Mars in Sagittarius: I so agree with this, "You are one to stand up and fight for any cause you believe in" That is me :) I am very involved with what is important to me, my beliefs. I really want to save the world, and voice that often. I am always in discussions about religion or politics and everything inbetween. Though I am very good at seeing others views and great about letting them know that. So it must be that Libra in Mercury helping me there :) And Its very true that I tend to stretch myself so thin with a million things at once lol

Jupiter in Scorpio: This is so true for me, "You are intense and uncompromising in your beliefs and moral views."

Saturn in Libra: I can see how sometimes I do have problems with dealing people and shutting myself off from them :(

The last three I felt were very interesting. I couldn't really see exactly myself so deeply in them though. Besides Pisces, where this fit: "into revitalizing the very basis of human connection with cosmos, Nature and other human beings."

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I just began reading the book "Ariadne's Thread: A Workbook of Goddess Magic" by Shekhinah Mountainwater

I am studying it with a group called Dianic Study Circle. As well as posting my thoughts about it in the group, and in my own personal journal/notebook I will also post it here to share.

I began reading it on: New Moon September 14th

And October 13th, the New Moon I began reading chapter 2 Altars.

Listen to my sound. I am the wind, which echos through the trees. The gentle breeze which tickles your flesh. Touch that which you walk upon. I am the green fields filled with fresh flowers. My breast the mountain peaks which reach toward the heavens. My curves the endless canyons. The waters that run through my womb, nourish the sacred river of life. I am the song within the storm. The whisper on the edge of the forest. The silence, the rush of raging waterfalls. Open your eyes my child, for I am everywhere. I have never left you and never will.
By Raven (Me)

Maiden Meditation

Sit in a comfortable position with your feet flat on the floor and your hands in your lap. Close your eyes and visualize a white light coming into position over the top of your head. See it coming down over you until you are completely surrounded by the light. Breathe it in with slow, even breaths. Feel your body relaxing, beginning with your toes and working up to your jaw and head muscles. It may take more time to relax the muscles of the shoulders, neck and head than the rest of the body.

Now see yourself standing beside a well. The stone walls of the well are moss-covered and worn. Take all the problems in your life that are bothering you and drop them into the well. Then turn and walk away down a little path that leads through a grove of trees.

In a short time you come to a very high cliff wall at the end of the path. Set into the wall is an iron-bound oak door. The door is narrow and tall with a peak at the top. A huge brass ring hangs near one edge of the door. You pull on the ring, and the door slowly comes open.

Inside is a wide tunnel winding away into the darkness, its curved roof illuminated for a space by two torches which hang in iron holders on either side of the door. As you step inside and take down one of the torches, the door slowly closes behind you.

Although the tunnel ahead is dark, the light of the torch clearly illuminates your way. You are protected. You set off down the tunnel, thinking of the Maiden. The tunnel begins to gently curve, first one way, then the other. There are smaller side tunnels but you feel no desire to explore them. You realize that you have at last entered the true labyrinth.

In the distance you hear the wild barking of dogs. You remind yourself that you are completely protected and have nothing to fear. Ahead of you are faint reflections of light, the sound of voices and footsteps. You go on, holding your torch high.

The sound of barking comes closer. Around the bend of the labyrinth comes a group of white-clad men and women, torches in their hands. Leading them is a tall, muscular woman dressed in a short white robe. Her hair is tied back, and at Her shoulder hang a bow and quiver of arrows. Hunting boots are on Her shapely feet. On Her right wrist an owl perches, its large dark eyes peering at you. A pack of lean hounds jump around you, licking your hands and barking.

The Maiden stops before you. You gaze into Her eyes, taking in their color and the color of Her hair, Her skin. She beckons to you, then turns and leads Her followers back down the tunnel, deeper still into the labyrinth. One of the companions links arms with you and urges you forward. Together you follow the Maiden.

Soon the twisting tunnel widens into a circular room. In the center a spring bubbles up in a fountain set inside a wide, shallow bowl in the floor. A series of benches are placed along the curving walls. You and the group of companions all set your torches in holders in the walls. As you do this, you notice that the smooth, white walls are covered with bright murals and elaborate carvings.

You walk slowly around the circular room, looking at the murals of forests and animals, dancing people and ritual scenes. The scenes and designs seem to touch something deep within you, as if you should understand a deeper mystical meaning behind them.

Soon one of the companions touches your arm and smiles. The companion points toward the Maiden who stands beside the central bowl of water. When you stand before Her, the Maiden smiles gently and asks if you have questions. The two of you talk for a time. She tells you that some of the answers will come later in dreams and in other ways.

Finally, She points to the spring and asks if you are prepared for initiation. If so, you slide quickly out of your clothes and step into the shallow basin. The Maiden picks up a pitcher and dips up the water. Slowly She pours pitcher after pitchers of the sparkling water over you as She and Her companions sing and chant. When She is finished, She blesses you with a kiss on the forehead. You feel your third eye begin to pulse and become active.

After you are again dressed, the companions and the Maiden lead you quickly back up the twisting tunnel. The journey back is much shorter than the journey inward. As you approach the door, the group dashes back down the tunnel laughing and calling farewells. You replace your torch in its holder, push against the door, and find yourself outside.

You take three deep, slow breaths and find yourself again in your chair in your present life surroundings. Sit quietly for a few moments to absorb what you experienced. If you like make notes of your journey.

Be aware for the next few weeks, for messages and answers to questions that may come from very unlikely place and people. Look at everything logically, though. Never take extreme answers at face value. Spirit never demands extreme or unethical action.

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My Chart-

Sun in Virgo
Moon in Scorpio
Mercury in Libra RX
Venus in Virgo
Mars in Sagittarius
Jupiter in Scorpio
Saturn in Libra
Uranus in Sagittarius
Neptune in Sagittarius
Pluto in Libra
Ascedant in Leo